Resistance

 I started this blog way back in 2010 with the intent to document my journey in life, specifically my spiritual awakening and all that goes with it. My resistance and fear got the better of me and it's been dormant until now. You'd think it would be easy to just sit down and write, then hit publish but it's not been easy for me to get on with it. I do a lot of offline journaling and have had websites and blogs in the past so it's something that comes relatively naturally to me. However, it makes me feel very vulnerable to put myself out there in this way when it comes to my spiritual life and work. I've not been well received in my life.. I've not felt safe to express this side of me. It's been a big stumbling block when it comes to stepping fully into my life purpose as this spiritual being, as a Healer and teacher . I know that I am on this planet now to express myself in all areas of my life, we all are. To step out of our fear, out of what we are conditioned to be and do.. and just be ourselves.. the truest expression of that. When we do that life opens up and we live our passions- we have more joy. It's been a long journey for me the past couple of years to uncover this for myself. Not that I haven't always been ME, I have- but I have also hid parts of me away. When it comes to writing and sharing these parts, I can come up with all sorts of excuses, all seeming very valid at the time. This is the way of resistance. The strongest of them are :

* I don't have time- yes, I am busy but I can always make time for something that is important to me, if I am willing,

* No one will read it or care- could be true but so what? If only one person reads it and gets something out of it, if only to make them think or look at the world in a different way - then I've done something. And it's about expressing myself anyway. It's worth the risk just to express. To put it out into the world.

* People will read it but will react negatively - it's not safe! Again, so what? I'm a big girl. I've already had this happen in just about every form possible at some point in my existence - I survived. 

So resistance be damned, I am going to start posting again. Those who have made it this far, thank you for reading, if you stick around and see that I am not posting regularly, call me on it. It's time to get myself out of the spiritual closet. This is another step in the right direction. This year we have entered The Golden Age. It is time for everyone to step it up and start living what we came here for, whatever that may be.  So if there is something you are struggling with, if there is resistance keeping you from moving forward into the life that you truly desire - push through it and go for it. Your next step to living the life of your dreams is just outside of your comfort zone!